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I remember that magnificent moment; that magnificent moment where I touched you. "And step by step you lead me", those were the first words to come from my heart to your's. I had no idea what those words truly meant; I had no idea where you would lead me. On that day I fell in love with you, no, on that day I began to love you. I am not ashamed to say that I love you. I hurt you so badly, I have told many lies, I have wounded people using your name, I have hid my light, I have ran from you. By day or night I see you and I feel you, that is how I know you remain near with me.

Even when I blamed you for my problems, even when I used you for my own selfish reasons, even when I fall, you opened the door and said, "Come home my child." There must be something wrong because I do not deserve this. How does your heart go on? How can you always give? I know I am not the only one, I know how it feels to be hurt, how do you survive? How can it be possible? I do not know why you put up with me. Oh God why? Why me? I know why, and everyday it becomes more unreal, that you would keep that door open for me.

I want to know you more. I promise I'll start talking to you more, you talk to me much more than I ever talk to you. When you touched my life you made me a different person, please help me change forever. Everything in my life I dedicate to you now, I will try and claim those things, do not allow me to. My life, in the past, now, and in the future is yours. This is my proclamation of living for you. I do not want to ask for anymore, I want to give more, take all that I have, lead me to that special place.