food for fish

I'm trying to walk the straight and narrow, but at times I'm not quite sure where I'm going. I struggle with the fact that God is using me because at times I don't feel that I am all that he wants me to be and shouldn't be using me. Each day I have to convince myself that He sees something in me. How could He love a person like me? I know He says He has a plan for me, but some days that plan is out of reach. I'm having a hard enough time telling my friends from enemies. I need His strength, I want his strength. I've been a fool for so long, I thought I was so strong. I want to be a child, but those days are gone. I have followed the plans I thought were from you, but all you wanted was for me to be still. Where is the path, I seem to have lost my way.

God be near. Your nearness is my good, be near oh God. I want your fullness and brightness in my life again. I want to trust in grace through faith. Give me a taste. I want to feel your embrace. I need to hear from you. I want to see your light rise on the nations, I want your glory to fill the Earth. You said ask and I'll give you the nations, Oh Lord that's the cry of my heart. Fill this Earth, fill these people, be near. How amazing your love, your grace, your mercy, that we may be called yours. How lovely is the sky, the ocean, the Earth, that it is our home and your creation. How wonderful your plans and how wonderful faith is when we trust in you.