food for fish

When I'm alone I fall. When I'm alone I fail. When I'm alone I grow weak. What am I talking about? Sin, I fall in the temptation of sin when I�m alone, it's been maybe a day or two since I've actually committed the sin, which for the past few weeks is good. I don't know what it is about sexual sin, which makes it seem so much worse than any other sin, because I know it is not. But I guess for me it's been one of the hardest to conquer, or attempt to conquer. I'm sure my past has caused me to be more susceptible to falling, but I know that I have my own responsibility for taking care of it. I must keep on asking for forgiveness, attempting to change (repent), and pray for God to lead me from the temptation when it occurs.

I'm actually typing this blog entry as a way to stay away from that which tempts me to fall into this sin. I have worship music playing, and my bible near by. I really need to spend a lot more time in the word; I spend very little of my day in his word. I know I need to know who God is more; I want to know God more. I have come to this point in my walk that unless I take reading his word seriously I'm just going to stagnate.

I've realized that some people see me as some kind of super Christian� that is almost an insult, I know it's not meant that way, but I try so hard to make people realize I'm human, I fall, I make mistakes, I'm not perfect� Christians are not perfect, we can never be perfect, we can only strive to follow Christ, and following Christ means giving up things, sacrificing our will, our plans for his. I know I have a strong way of letting someone know when I don't approve of something, but this is because I love you, not because I want you to feel condemned. I have a strong sense of discernment, I can feel right and wrong, but I can't always explain it, I'm working on this, keep it in prayer. His plans and will for our lives are so much more rewarding, it is amazing, and maybe it's the reason some see me as a "super Christian", thanks but, no thanks.

Since i'm sort of on the subject of lust, sexual sin, and the such... here is what people on "one word" wrote about the word "lust".

[Galatians 5:5-6]
But we who live by the Spirit eagerly wait to receive everything promised to us who are right with God through faith. For when we place our faith in Christ Jesus, it makes no difference to God whether we are circumcised or not circumcised. What is important is faith expressing itself in love.

-= Prayer requests =-
Poland Financial support, I'm leaving in four months!
Relationships with my family
PATIENCE
Recognize and destroy temptations in my life
To just be real
When I'm bored, and alone, to seek God not others or things
Be delivered of the things of my past

-= Praises =-
I know God's (current) plan for me
I�m confident in my self (constant struggle)
ALL of my friends are awesome, with out them I would not be who I am today!
My church family, I love it, I love the people, and I know God is with them
God is awesome