In recent months, I have had both external and internal confirmations urging me to take a hold of my proper authority, both authority as in status and authority in wisdom and knowledge. I believe now that the stagnation that I have felt over the past few months has been mostly due to me failing to step into this authority. Half of me does not know how and the other half is scared of this. I know in my head what it looks like, but my heart is weary and unsure. Moving the knowledge from my head into my heart and then actually asserting this authority is a scary thing. The Lord is urging me to do this quickly, deep down I know in some strange way it is only I that has this authority.
To step into this new territory is going to require a lot of administration, emails, scheduling, and much prayer. Some of it I am walking into completely blind, feeling as if I have no tools (weapons in some cases) to be victorious, yet I know that He never lets go. A mentor of mine gave me Isaiah 30:15 a couple of weeks ago, I have taken until just a few minutes ago to read it. This is what it says (click the verse reference for the content):
This is what the Sovereign LORD,In the full content of the chapter, I realize that God’s grace is fully sufficient to cover the unknown into this new authority, and to cover whatever areas I “feel” unequipped to do. I must step forward, and say “here I am, use me.” My natural instinct is to wait until I am approached by someone to step into ministry, however I believe the time has come for me to step up to the plate on my own.
the Holy One of Israel, says
"In repentance and rest is your salvation,
in quietness and trust is your strength,
but you would have none of it.
Lord, here I am, use me, I accept this new responsibility and authority. I receive your grace, and praise you. May I walk in your strength, authority, wisdom, and power in the areas where I know you have called me. Grant me boldness to speak, with wisdom and grace, and proclaim to my fellow soldiers that you have called me and I am not waiting for human confirmation any longer. In Your son Jesus’ name, AMEN.
